10.12am- spiritually speaking

I have a central core belief that allows me to still call myself 'spiritual', however, i find the minutia of it all a bit underwhelming these days.

I object to labels, titles etc within spirituality, I object to dogma.

I really believe that no two people can believe in the same way- that God/Goddess/whatever speaks to us all in different ways, and we respond to that difference.

i feel that the only way to know the Divine source is to live with it in your heart, and that this is not always possible because it challenges us so.

I know that my friends, know i am their friend and don't need reassurance every step of the way- if you are in my life it is because i want you in my life.

I try hard to speak with truth but often have stumbled out of fear of hurting someone I care about- this is just me and something i am working on, making huge steps on.

There is no one friend in my life that i cannot live without- this may seem harsh but is true , for me and for you- we come into this world alone and leave alone- dependence in life is not a strength.

if i ignore you, it is usually because what i have to say to you will cause you pain and i struggle with that............i tend to stick to 'if you cant say something nice, don't say anything at all'

i do find that certain people always want to pull me down- i believe we all have people like that in our lives- 'eternal grounders' I call them- they sense when you are flying high and then pull you back down to earth because only when you are grounded can they deal with you, which is sad but true.

Spiritually speaking, i think the challenges in our life are sent to help us grow- still, i feel like i would dearly love a couple of months of being unchallenged.

This is just stuff, ramblings of my brain the beautiful Monday morning.....trying to filter through the minutia of the last few months.

I really miss my FIL and it still catches me by surprise to realise he is gone.  It is so unbelievable to me, so very sad.

My medication is working very well but i need to cut back the dosage a little because the current dosage i am on is making me too sleepy during the day, affecting my breathing and speech.

I miss my Cottage girls and will do my best to get over and catch up in the next few weeks.

I am wearing tights and DOM has bought me PODS, which is why i need tights in the first place.

Wide, I am........yes...........

and stronger than i have ever been.

Blinkers are off now, for good.

Lisa xx