"I would rather be hurt with the truth, than protected by a lie"

Thursday, July 01, 2010

12.48pm- tears

cant stop crying
this is part of the healing i am told
am so angry too
angry at the world
angry at nearly everyone

i wish i could feel again without the hurt
i wish i could console you in your pain
but i cant
i am struggling here with my own pain
stuggling to be fair to all

i am going to sleep now
i know i shouldnt but i am
exhaustion makes this all a bit too much
I need to close it off for a minute

worrying about the cottage
the stress it is under
knowing that it needs a mothers love
and i am dry, devoid of that for now

mind me not
i am overwhelmed with my life
with my loss
with my own world of hurt

the wind will blow
and i will change again
i know that
i know it

thank you Michelle
for allow my anger to be heard
for allowing my loss to be recognised and validated
for allowing me a glimpse of the world without pain
for getting Dimitri to serve us
xxx


2 Perceptions & Possibilities:

Michelle said...

smooch!

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Yes, have a good cry and go to bed -- it can work wonders!