2.06pm- its Official

Yep

it is official now

the committee have been informed
and i have put notices on both the Rose Cottage website
and the Face Book page

Yes, its official.

Rose Cottage will close its doors for the last time
at the end of this month, bringing 6 years
of a very special experience
to an end

It has been a really difficult last week for me
trying to weigh up
the pro's and con's
of whether to keep slugging it out
or to give in to the fates

ofcourse the fates have won.
I notified my committee girls yesterday and today
braved the facebook page to do the same
it has been hard, i'll tell you
very emotional
very intense
but inevitably
i feel
the right choice has been made

My committee have really done the hard yards
this year
picking up the ball
and running with it with new ethusiasm
but eventually
i could see
that the writing was on the wall.

So we begin the wrap up of over six years of my life
my work
and for many of you it has been close to six years as well.

I am very emotional but yes, i know the time is right to sign off
we all know that
but it doesnt take the pain away
or the sadness i am feeling

the time is right
and I have new directions calling me
new adventures

overall, I am proud of what i have achieved
but always acknowledged that it was never really me alone
the help i have had from the Rose Cottage Community
has really been the fuel in my tank
that kept me going
but now, i just dont have what it takes to keep it going anymore
i am tired
tired

I like to think of my self as a woman of integrity
and i truly believe that spirituality
should not be a business
that sharing knowledge between sisters
should not be to make one sister richer than the other

over the years i have been challenged in this belief
and supported 100% by Marc
Spirituality and spiritual teaching
are not, should not, be seen as marketable items
and with the current trend of people thinking otherwise

I can find no peace
no place for me

My dream for Rose Cottage was always
that it would be a community of people
learning and teaching
teaching and learning
where people could be touched by the Divine
without it costing them the grocery money.

I stand by my dream
completely.

Yep, i have some hurt too
and i am working with that-
trying to work out why when i gave so much
i was then publicly debased and humiliated
by those i trusted so much.

My kids tell me that it was about that time
late last year
that i 'lost heart'
and my answer to that is that i didnt lose heart
it was just so much harder to function with a broken heart,
and broken it was
and i fear always will be in that regard.

Still, the majority of memories are wonderous and magickal
and i feel pride in myself for my achievments
for never selling out
for never putting a price on what should be given free.

Rose Cottage started as a 'by donation' community
and ends the same way.

So yes,
it is now official.

Classes will continue as normal for the next couple of weeks
before the doors close for good on the 31st.

I am sad but happy
happy but sad too

i know what i set out to do
and i have done it as best i can

Everyone who has ever walked through the door of Rose Cottage
has changed my life experience in one way or another
and for that
i am a much better
much wiser person.

Please accept my gratitude
for the part you have played in my dream

Gratitude
Gratitude
Gratitude

Blessed Be

Lisa x